Had enough of feeling like a slug.
So damn meaningless!
The thought of waking up in a day and den gonna end up in the same place a few hours later is really tiring,trust me.
Coz I am totally doing N-O-T-H-I-N-G.

Great!
What am I waiting for?
Christmas is dropping in a week time and so come Two Thousand and FIVE a week after.

I thought I am gonna feel happy?
Duh...I think I would be happier earning my money miserably!
At least I HAVE GOT MONEY!!!

Ok..I just went in the kitchen to literally plead my mum STOP putting money on my table.
Have received a total of $25 or far.I mean it's kind but I'm at the age that feels so damn ashamed of myself when she does that.
I'm at the age or beyond the age whereby I get kick outta the house and live on my own if I'm under those Western cultures.

I really have no idea how Vonny did this,man?Dont work and still live on?I feel miserable since day one coz I am truely not being productive and just another dustbag in this society!

-_-!
And I really hate it when it seems that our lives seem to swap places.That person is now being more productive and happier than I am!
Say did I make a wrong step or what?

Ok..Good.
I saw in my email that I dunno from where and when but a agent ask me to send in my resume for this small and cozy company dealing with international high end luxury goods,as an accounts and admin executive.Received peanuts pay of 1.2k before confirmation and an increment of 100 after.

Am tempted to send in coz it really doesnt hurt plus I am sick of playing the sick dog at home.

Plus I may not really get into NIE,you know?

Jobs duties are basically as follows:

- Purchase orders to HQ (Denmark)
- Credit not claims to store
- Administration of PO for corporate accounts
- Petty cash claims

So..so???

Why not?
=]
And damnit,if I really like it I might as well live off there.If I dun,I will say good bye and get ready for my NIE.If I get NIE,hello to my teaching days.
If I dun ,I will be doing something at least.
And..and...and...That is all if I pass thru everything and that they take me.

Ta da..I sent!

Yng must be slapping her forehead now.
Good grief,what have I done?
Well..just gonna earn some dough.

I was a bad gal yesterday.
I dunno why.
Maybe he wasn't well dressed? ;p
Kidding.
I was just being bad!

I wanna fall in love.I wanna fall in love for everything that I am doing!
I dun wanna be like this.

Say if I am working,I wanna fall in love with my job..Like that Evon(from 4e3)
If I am just shopping and walking down the streets,I wanna be immersed in my own world and not thinking why am I doing alone in the crowded streets?
If I am cooking,I wanna cook my heart out and not well...be afraid of the splatting oil.Lol.
If I am eating,I wanna fill my heart content and not just yurks at the sins.But I cant help it.
Like I just feel absolutely disgusted at the drumstick that Jason ate yesterday.
So is it the drumstick or the eater's manner?

i dunno.

Feel like some alienated creature stuffing herself at the addictive popcorns that Mum made.
It's driving the heat up in my body.
*rubs eyes more*